Life lately

I can't believe it's been almost a year since I posted anything here! It really doesn't feel like that long. In December Josh got put on a project that had him traveling every week, so things got really strange. He missed my birthday and our anniversary, and I basically lived alone from December thru April. It wasn't fun by any means but I survived and I felt a lot more independent because of it. Then in May he started a different project where he was working overnight. That was worse. It sounds crazy, because hey at least he's home, right? But no. He sleeps all day so I have to find stuff to do that's quiet, and then he's up all night on the phone while I'm trying to sleep. And our house isn't big so...yeah. He got a different schedule for a while and things were better but now he's about to go back to overnights and working weekends and I am not pleased at all. But, what can I do, he's got a good job and he works from home.

When he started working overnights in May we (obviously) had to make a lot of changes and one of the most notable was that we stopped eating out. It was partially just because nothing is open in the middle of the night but the timing also coincided with my getting the DDP yoga system and I ended up losing quite a bit of weight and I'm in the process of amassing an entirely new wardrobe. It's not a bad feeling I gotta say...

I want to start writing more but I really don't know where to do it. Here is an option, but there's also my tumblr which is far more anonymous or I could go real old-school and go back to livejournal! Haha. Maybe I should just do that. I really should pick one project at a time, and I've got three half-finished dolls that I need to make dresses for soon but eh. I've never been good at finishing stuff before starting something new.

Because of that I also have more than a few boxes scattered throughout the house, some with stuff to get rid of, some with stuff to put away for the season, some with stuff that needs to be hemmed or altered in some way...ugh. I really need to organize my life. And also not forget that I'm supposed to throw a party at the end of this month. And then go to the Renaissance Festival next month. And then turn 30 in December. Although if I forget that it'd be fine by me.

I also just got back from visiting a friend in Pennsylvania. My first time flying alone! What an adventure. In order to make the most of it I decided to fly insanely hungover there and then ridiculously tired coming back. (I didn't, really, but those things did happen.) We had a great time and now I'm pining for that gorgeous fall weather because it's still hitting 90° most days. Which wouldn't be so bad if we didn't also have a red tide, currently, making it intolerable to sit on the beach.

This post sounds really complainy but I don't mean it to. Life is pretty awesome, still, and I've got multiple things to look forward to. Hopefully all of that will give me more fun stuff to write about. :)

Clarity

Finally. I feel like I've been living in a fog this week. Sick from Sunday to Saturday, I finally felt normal again today. I still don't have my full sense of smell, and I only ate one meal, but for the most part I feel better. I washed everything, clothes, sheets, all the random blankets we have in the living room...if I touched it while I was sick, it got thrown in the washing machine today. I hate being sick, and don't want to relapse just because I stuck my face in a dirty pillow, you know?

Anyway, despite going to Dallas and having my beloved Whataburger (twice!) this week sort of sucked. There were still a few adventures thrown in there, like Herb not knowing how to tell us to exit (Herb is what we named our GPS voice-man), and finding out that DFW airport is so massive it basically has it's own highway system, and coming home in a different car than we left in, but I slept more than I was awake and I really can't tell you what days any of those things happened, or any other details that might be interesting.

Things have been so weird this whole month. Josh traveling, my knee being messed up, then getting sick, and then both of us traveling...I'm kind of ready to just be back to normal this week. I have my appointment with the orthopedic specialist early tomorrow morning, so hopefully I'll get some kind of resolution out of that, and not just another 'stay off of it and see what happens' kind of visit, because I'm tired of staying off of it. I also meet with the actual psychiatrist on Wednesday, and then the eye doctor on Thursday. It's another busy week, but Josh will be here, and all my appointments are close to the house, so it should be more normal than the past two weeks have been.

I don't have a menu planned for this week since I haven't been up to cooking or even thinking about what to cook just yet. I may plan something and go out tomorrow evening, depending on how I feel after my doctors appointment in the morning. I know that I need to get back on plan (I'm pretty sure that stopping my evening smoothies is what weakened my immune system in the first place!) but I also doing want to do too much to quick and relapse. I've done that before, and that's why I went ahead and stayed in from the time we got back on Wednesday until now...I do not want to be sick anymore. I hate it!

Ok, sorry for rambling on about being sick so much, but that's pretty much all that my life consisted of this past week. Sick at home, sick in a hotel room in Dallas, sick on the road, and more sick at home. Boring. This next week will definitely bring more blog-worthy happenings, as well as some deliveries! Ahh, retail therapy. Does the body good! ;)

Lazy Sunday

Today wasn't supposed to be such a lazy day, we had plans to go downtown for the St. Patrick's Day festivities, but I'm just so wiped out. I'm not used to going out and doing something every single day of the week (even if it was just shopping), and then when Josh got back we went out to the club where he DJs three nights in a row! So I decided to take today to relax, wash clothes, and get ready for this next week....

Josh has to go on another trip, but since it's only to Dallas, he decided to drive and take me with him. Which means that I am currently trying to do all the laundry, and decided what I want to take, and really hoping that this sore throat and cough I woke up with today doesn't turn into a full-blown cold. I also have a doctors appointment tomorrow afternoon, so we'll probably get up, go pick up our rental, wait for Aaron to get here (Joshs brother, he's house/dog/cat sitting for us), go to my doctors appointment, then pack up and leave since Josh has to get there and immediately get to work. I also have to call and reschedule my eye doctors appointment that I had on Wednesday, since we won't be back until late Wednesday night. And then, of course, we're right back to Thursday which is Joshs night to play.

I'm not complaining. Not in the least, I'm actually glad that we've got some fun stuff (finally!) happening in this town, and I'm definitely appreciative of the fact that Josh has such a great job that allows for us to do all the things we want, and that I can go on this trip with him, it just seems like it all happened at the same time. And I'm trying to hold it together, but...it's hard. I had to deal with a lot of anxiety triggers this week, but in all honesty, I didn't have time to have another anxiety attack.

I really would like to just lay down and go to sleep right now but I still have a lot of stuff that needs to get done before we leave tomorrow, and Josh is pretty useless in that sense. I'm also worried that if I go to sleep I'm just going to wake up even sicker, and want to do less than I do now. Anyway, I hope everyone has a great week, I probably won't get back on here until next weekend.

Well, almost

Yesterday we found out that because of some changes that are taking place within Joshs company right now, they're going to be having this big 'meet and greet' sort of conference, at which they'll be getting necessary things done, but they want people to bring their spouses since they'll be going over benefits and what not. Which means that I have to meet other people. A lot of them. At once.

I already had two anxiety attacks over this yesterday, but I keep telling myself that if I get them over with now, then maybe I won't have any there. In front of people. I know that's not really how it works, but I'm doing what I can. And today, I'm choosing to focus my energy elsewhere. Like the mall!

I know, I KNOW. I'm not supposed to be shopping, but since this trip is taking place very soon, if I want anything new to take with me, I have to shop now. And I definitely want something (or a couple of somethings) new to take. And Josh actually needs new stuff, since he was...a little less chunky the last time he had to travel and look presentable. Working from home will do that to ya!

Anyway. I'm going to try and just choose one or two nice dresses or something, and focus more on getting Josh some nice stuff, since he really needs it more. I plan to just show up when I have to, and spend the rest of my time wandering the city alone taking pictures. (Anyone out there live in Charlotte, N.C., or have some suggestions of things I must see?)